Friday, 20 November 2009

39 ~ The one where it was two years ago

"We don’t always get to choose which obstacles we face in life, but from the moment we were given free will it has always been our choice in how we deal with them."

Well well well, today is 2 years since I was diagnosed. How on earth did that happen? It feels like it was forever ago really, I can't remember what was said to me or anything when I was told I had cancer but I know a lot of things changed in an instant!

2 years!! I honestly can't believe it's been that long. Every anniversary is a milestone for me so I am very happy that I have made it this many years since diagnosis. My consultant told me that the chances of the cancer coming back gets less and less as the years go by.
So here's to 2 years down...and the REST of them to go! lol.

I had my 8 weekly check up last week. It went ok, I had a dream (or rather a nightmare) a couple of nights before my appointment so I was quite nervous this time. Which is unusual for me.
I have had a bit of trouble with my swallowing lately, when I was having radiotherapy I was lucky because I could still eat the whole way through (hence putting 500 stone on!), it did seem a bit harder to swallow food, but only with things like bread. I can still swallow, but sometimes it feels like food is getting stuck and I have to swallow a few more times to get it down.
I've also been getting ear pain too, which I got before I was diagnosed so I mentioned that as well as the swallowing thing.

Had a look at my vocal cords and thank goodness they were looking ok.

I have had really bad acid reflux since having radiotherapy and lately it's got a lot worse. To the point where I can't lay flat and if I drink too fast I get hiccups, or it comes straight back up (gross, I know) - It's not very nice. If I drink I can feel it going all the way down and if it's cold, it feels freezing, if it's hot, it feels REALLY hot and it burns.
I thought that it was related to the treatment but Mr Pace said it isn't. Soo, I have to go for a gastroscopy to see what's going on there. I am pretty much dreading it! I just really hope that the sedation works this time because last time (when I had my PEG put in my stomach) it didn't and it was quite a traumatic experience for me. Not to scare everyone because I'm pretty sure that MOST of the time it does work, just not for

Mr Pace mentioned that he was thinking of sending me for a barium swallow test but he said that they might be able to see what's going on when they do the gastroscopy. So I guess we'll see how that goes! I'm thinking it'll probably be after Christmas.

Oh, I got some sad news. Well it's not really sad, but just for me lol. Dr Tahir (my oncologist) is no longer working with the ENT cancers so I wont see him again. Which is good if you really think about it, haha.
But, I will miss him, I actually haven't seen him for ages but was hoping that one day I'd see him at one of my appointments. Booooooo.

I had my 'first' haircut a couple of weeks ago (or maybe a month, I can't remember!) - I got fed up of it having no style so had it chopped. Well, not really chopped because I didn't want it too short lol.
I'm pretty happy with the length now and I don't think I'll let it grow to how long it was before it fell out. It's still darker than what it was pre chemo and if I don't straighten it, it's curly where as before it was dead straight.

Anyway, so much for not writing in my blog anymore eh?! I guess I will do every now and then!

On to my Nan - she had a hysterectomy two weeks ago and yesterday went back to see her surgeon. They got ALL of the cancer and she doesn't need any further treatment. Thank God. I am so relieved for her, she is really happy too.

Hayley & Nan - 2 : Cancer - 0!!

Okey doke, I'm off now. Apologies for the long blog post (as usual.)

Thanks everyone for your support and lovely comments. Stay in touch!



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